#DearMe, please don't give up.

*Inspired by Kirstin Maldonado's #DearMe


Many times in my life, I always think that whatever I'm doing, it is not worth for anything. Family, friends, boys; all kind of temptation for a girl like me. I always failed to have a good connection to them. I want people to have a deep thoughts in their mind like, 'Hey, she seems nice. She must be a really good person and I would love to talk and be friends with her.'

But I guess I know the reality. I didn't have a magical touch to make people love me. I don't really have a nice attitude. I don't like to smile or being nice or even being talkative and understanding. I am just a boring girl. I know people don't like to be friends with me.

I wish I was popular during the high school. I wish everyone knows me. But that's simply not me.

I am tired. Tired because I tried to please everyone that I know. Tired because I tried to be a perfect woman; while I know the reality is I am not. Tired when I have to make myself seems like a very smart woman.

I am nothing.

Nothing at all.

You can deny everyone's opinions when they said bad things about you. But that's not so easy. Not as easy as it had been said. It is a battle. Sometimes you are strong enough to just ignore it. But there will be a time when you will feel really down. You cannot deny that you are actually sad with their judgement towards you. That's okay. Life has it's ups and downs.

Just remember one. The most clever response to someone's crap is no response at all.